Friday, August 13, 2010

A letter to my cousin…

Tomiwa,

I was just about to go to sleep and I stumbled on your facebook page and I was reminded you were gone. I will admit, I don’t deal with death well… I try my best to fill my head with as many distractions as I possibly can, whatever it takes to avoid confronting the fact that I will never again see your face again on this earth. I know this is probably a cowardly way to deal with losing you, but I really don’t know any other way to understand this situation.

The day I found out you were gone, my world was shaken. For the first time in a long time, I cried… I felt like part of me had been ripped away… painfully and suddenly. I know people say that everything that happens is the will of God. I refuse to believe that the loving God that we serve would take you away from us so cruelly… for what reason? What could He gain? Did God want to rip out the hearts of your parents and sisters and then trample on them? No, that’s not our God… This is the doing of the evil one. The one comfort we have is that our God is the ultimate comforter.

These wounds may never heal completely, but I know that eventually, the pain will subside. I will always look back on your life with fond memories. I want to take this chance to thank you for looking after my parents for me and my brothers. I wish I could do the same for you… short of bringing you back, I’m not sure anything I could do would ever completely alleviate their pain… but I am praying for all of us left behind, who love you, especially the women who’ve always loved you, your sisters, and your mom. I’m praying that God WILL comfort us

I love you man. You were such a wonderful person and I will miss you greatly.

RIP Tommy Sho…

Friday, August 6, 2010

Lukewarm…

Do you ever have a day that starts out really bad... almost looks like nothing is gonna go right for you... then, somewhere along the line, something happens that tips the scales in the other direction? Not neccesarilly a big event, just something that puts you in a good mood. At the end of it all, you really can't say it's been a good day... or a bad one, even. I guess days like that, yesterday for me,  are proof that life isn't always black and white!Have a grey day!